Internal Chatterbox

Today I spent the whole day talking to myself.

Thought that would get your attention....

I spend all day talking to myself.....every day. Not aloud. I don't need to verbalize my messages to hear myself. I will sample some of the the things I say: "You messed up", "You are a failure", "You are really smart", "You are a great father", "You are a lousy father", "Things are going to be terrible", "Things are going to be great", "Nobody likes you", "Everybody likes you", "Moishe thinks well of you", "Duvie thinks nothing of you. Remember that time he disrespected you"  "You are a grubbe am ha-aretz" [complete ignoramus - I talk to myself in various languages that I speak or don't speak], "You really learn well", "You messed up" [a common theme:), hence the repetition], "He is a rotten person", "He is a special person", "She is friendly", "She is insecure", "He is arrogant", "He is holy." [For better or for worse I spend quite a bit of time psychoanalyzing others and trying to understand their behavior and its motivations and rationale]. Here is one that just came into my mind: "Stop blogging and get back to the sugya in Psachim that you have been unsuccessfully working through much of the day". The list goes on for as long as my life does [biz a hundret un tzvontzik!].

Here is the secret: We ALL spend most of the day talking to ourselves. Here is today's "personal growth" lesson [FREE AT MEVAKESH!!! I often wonder why the blog is Baruch Hashem so popular. About 600-700 hits a day, which is close to 600-700 more people than I get when I give shiur. My only explanation is that it is FREE. But then again so are my shiurim... So the jury is still out deciding on that. Wait! As I type my internal voice said "Is that considered bragging? Maybe I should delete that. Maybe I should delete the thing about my shiurim? Maybe I should delete this whole post? Maybe I should go to sleep. I want tea. I have to go say goodnight to Gila. I love Gila. I have to brush my teeth. I have to go to the dentist. That's expensive."]:

THE MESSAGES YOU CONVEY TO YOURSELF WILL DIRECTLY DETERMINE THE AMOUNT OF HAPPINESS AND SATISFACTION YOU HAVE FROM LIFE.

[As I type I say to myself "I wonder what my friend 'Danny' named his newborn".]

Here is the sad part: Most of most people's messages are negative.... So the first step is to be cognizant of the fact that you are sending yourself messages. The second step is to start BOMBARDING yourself with POSITIVE messages.

If I had to rate this post for its importance on a scale of 1 to 10 it would get a 10.

[As I type my mind says to me "Maybe give it a nine?"]

A great achievement [if you can do it] is to TURN OFF that internal chatterbox from time to time...:)

Love and blessings!

[My internal voice says "Stop writing 'love' on your blog. It is a crazy generation. If the love is directed at the guys it means that people will think that you are.... If it is directed at the ladies it means that people will think you are... Besides those two genders there are no other options. No, I'll keep it. I love Jews. Sorry."]