"שבע יפול צדיק וקם"
Winston Churchill
I often read people's resumes or bios and there are a lot of success and accomplishments listed there. I once read a autobiography of a well known contemporary rabbi and it was hundreds of pages of only successes. Like - really? These people never fail? Mess up? Estropear? Gâcher? קאליע מאכן ?? מתפשל??
So I want to come clean and maybe be an example for others to come clean. I fail all the time!!! Too many times to list!! I have been fired from two jobs [one place didn't even tell me - they just hoped they could ignore me and I would go away. So I finally confronted them and they said that they can't commit to hiring me the following year - i.e. get lost. Which I happily did]. I have been rejected from too many jobs I applied for that I can count. I recently was almost sure I was getting a good job giving shiurim somewhere and - BOOM - rejected.
When I was a kid I wasn't particularly popular with the guys and [BARUCH HASHEM BARUCH HASHEM BARUCH HASHEM] not at all - but at all-zero - with the other, more gentle, gender [this was before my conversion to Judaism and subsequent enlightenment that it is bad for boys to have anything to do with girls until they have to get married. Bad for the boys, bad for the girls, bad for the cosmos].
I was considered a good athlete until my skills started declining as I went into the teenage years and I was surpassed by my peers. I was also a lousy student and about that I have good stories. It wasn't necessarily b/c I wasn't bright [although maybe I wasn't and am STILL NOT] but b/c I didn't care. Which tied into a whole philosophy [I was always a little bit of a philosopher] I won't get into here.
There is more [much more!!] but the point is well taken. It is OK to fail. WE ALL DO!!! Hashem loves us still. We should love ourselves no less. Weshould must remain happy. Nobody should be allowed to determine how we feel about ourselves and our lives.
Only one pasuk: וטוב לב משתה תמיד!!! Let life be a [spiritual] party with a joyous heart!!!!
So I want to come clean and maybe be an example for others to come clean. I fail all the time!!! Too many times to list!! I have been fired from two jobs [one place didn't even tell me - they just hoped they could ignore me and I would go away. So I finally confronted them and they said that they can't commit to hiring me the following year - i.e. get lost. Which I happily did]. I have been rejected from too many jobs I applied for that I can count. I recently was almost sure I was getting a good job giving shiurim somewhere and - BOOM - rejected.
When I was a kid I wasn't particularly popular with the guys and [BARUCH HASHEM BARUCH HASHEM BARUCH HASHEM] not at all - but at all-zero - with the other, more gentle, gender [this was before my conversion to Judaism and subsequent enlightenment that it is bad for boys to have anything to do with girls until they have to get married. Bad for the boys, bad for the girls, bad for the cosmos].
I was considered a good athlete until my skills started declining as I went into the teenage years and I was surpassed by my peers. I was also a lousy student and about that I have good stories. It wasn't necessarily b/c I wasn't bright [although maybe I wasn't and am STILL NOT] but b/c I didn't care. Which tied into a whole philosophy [I was always a little bit of a philosopher] I won't get into here.
There is more [much more!!] but the point is well taken. It is OK to fail. WE ALL DO!!! Hashem loves us still. We should love ourselves no less. We
Only one pasuk: וטוב לב משתה תמיד!!! Let life be a [spiritual] party with a joyous heart!!!!
