Lirfuas Chaya Yocheved Feige bas Michal Yehudis Basya, Ava Shlomit bas Elana Esther and Malka Rochel bas Sarah Yehudis bi-soch shear cholei Yisrael.
“Welcome to the wonderful world of jealousy. For the price of admission, you get a splitting headache, a nearly irresistable urge to commit murder, and an inferiority complex. Yippee.”
“Jealousy is a disease, love is a healthy condition. The immature mind often mistakes one for the other, or assumes that the greater the love, the greater the jealousy - in fact, they are almost incompatible; one emotion hardly leaves room for the other.”
“A lot of people get so hung up on what they can't have that they don't think for a second about whether they really want it.”
SHALLLLLLLLLLOMMM SWEEEETEST FRIENDS!!!!!
It is CONFESSION TIME!!!
This will probably NOT come as a surprise to you but I will tell you ANYWAY!!!
I have bad middos!!! There is SOOOOOOO MUCH for me to work on and fix. I am FILLED with personality deficiencies!! FRIGHTENING!!!
What are they? Ahhhhhhhhhhh the list is too long.... And, like, who cares?? Why should you care what is wrong with ME? You shouldn't!!! So that's the GOOD NEWS!!! I won't burden you with a list of my faults, foibles, inadequacies, weaknesses etc. etc. Well, at least SOMETHING good came from this email!!!
But I will share ONE THING wrong with me with the idea in mind that MAYBE you *know somebody* who has this issue as well.
JEALOUSY!!! I often find myself INSTINCTIVELY feeling jealous of the success of others. MANY people feel jealous or envious at the success of others - they just don't tell you. The Mishna says that jealousy - קנאה - takes you out of the world. It DESTROYS you from the inside. So we GOTTA learn how to overcome.
Hashem doesn't like this middah - to say the least. Says the Torah as the last of the BIG TEN DIBROS:
לֹ֥א תַחְמֹ֖ד בֵּ֣ית רֵעֶ֑ךָ: לֹֽא־תַחְמֹ֞ד אֵ֣שֶׁת רֵעֶ֗ךָ וְעַבְדּ֤וֹ וַאֲמָתוֹ֙ וְשׁוֹר֣וֹ וַחֲמֹר֔וֹ וְכֹ֖ל אֲשֶׁ֥ר לְרֵעֶֽךָ׃
You shall not covet your neighbor’s house: you shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, or his male or female slave, or his ox or his donkey and all that is your neighbor’s.
OK, great, but how do we prevent ourselves from coveting??? There is so much others have that we lack.
1] First - work on עין טובה. Take a pro-active approach!! Think "I am HAPPY that the other person has "X". He didn't take it away from me - did he?? So let him enjoy!!!!" Try to FEEL the other person and then you won't envy b/c nobody is envious of themselves. This is called in Jewish "Love thy neighbor as you love yourself".
2] Look at the first of the Dibros [which parallels the tenth. 2 parallels 9 etc.] "I am Hashem your G-d." HASHEM decided in his INFINITE wisdom that this person needs what he has and YOU DON'T. If it were better for you to have it - you would!!!! He/she has their job - you have yours. If you had what they did - it would be BAD for you!!!! So Baruch Hashem you were saved!
3] Focus on what you HAVE. You have SOOOO MUCH that maybe you take for granted that others lack. Focus on the TALENTS that you have. NOBODY is special and unique like YOU. When you are busy looking at others you are losing out on maximizing YOUR potential.
4] There is a GREAT hint in the pasuk. The pasuk concludes וכל אשר לרעך - And all your friend has. You friend has a BEAUTIFUL AMAZING wife, a multi million dollar PALATIAL PALACE [when he is not in his other place in Miami - where he goes on his private plane], a 2036- model LEXUS, super kids that give him such nachas etc. etc. etc. OK but ... וכל אשר לרעך. He also has OTHER THINGS!!! Like maybe anxiety or digestive problems or terrible allergies or big time anguish from their family issues or prolonged grief etc. etc. You never know. Here is the secret: EVERYBODY is having a rough time. EVERYBODY has demons and challenges that you don't have and don't want. It is a PACKAGE DEAL. In this package we all have GREAT THINGS and not such great things. And if until now the person hasn't been seriously challenged - trust me, he/she will. It is just a matter of time. This is NOT the world of "chillin' and coastin'" but a world of challenges, difficulties and tests [I "stole" that idea from the מסילת ישרים]. Life is TOUGH!!! So why be jealous of a person who has problems that you would NEVER WANT. Feel their pain and daven for their success but PLEASE - don't be envious.
May we merit a SUPA-DUPA AYIN TOVA-DIKA SHABBOS and only rejoice at the success of others.
Love and blessings